The older I get, the less I remember. Yesterday, I received an e-mail from an old college friend on Facebook. She asked if I recalled who she was. Thankfully, this time I did. However, more and more, I find myself struggling to remember. I have been teaching for over 20 years, so there are a lot of names and faces in my memory. The class of 98 was having its reunion this past year, and the reunion organizer asked if I knew where Danny Diaz was. I had to laugh. I have taught soooo many kids named Danny Diaz. It’s sort of comical, really. Will the real Danny Diaz stand up please….
Thankfully, my Abba Father does not have a bad memory. He chooses to forget and forgive my sin because Jesus went to the cross for me, but He knows my name — the details of my life are not fuzzy in His mind’s eye. He counts my tears in a bottle. The very hairs on my head are numbered. He has hemmed me in behind and before and has laid His hand upon me.
Yet, there are days when I get weary and forget His faithfulness – nothing seems to be happening. My prayer list is getting longer, and I am dealing with the same set of unchanged circumstances after knocking on heaven’s door diligently. Has God forgotten? Maybe He is too busy with that Haiti thing to worry about my stuff?
This past weekend, my pastor pointed us to Nehemiah. He was busy trying to build something for God, but the enemy kept coming against him. Nehemiah had to build with one hand and fight with the other. This one verse in Chapter 4 stuck out to me: “Do not be afraid of them. Remember the Lord, great and awesome, and fight for your brethren, your sons, your daughters, your wives and your houses.”
I am going to try to get my brain in gear so that I don’t forget His power, His faithfulness, His purpose. I am working on putting this passage from Hebrews 6 to memory:
God is not unjust. He will not forget your work
and the love you have shown Him
as you have helped His people and continue to help them.
We want each of you to show this same diligence to the very end,
in order to make your hope sure.
We do not want you to become lazy,
but to imitate those who through faith and patience
inherit what has been promised.